do you ever feel like what you do doesn't really matter?
i feel that way a lot. and i know in my head it's not true, but for me "knowing" something is totally separate from "feeling" something.
like when i clean up the house, and it's a mess within twenty minutes. or when i do something at work and no one really cares. or when i spend time blogging and i don't get any comments. (hint hint) :)
i think my depression today has a lot to do with lack of sleep. it has been...oh...who knows how long...since i've had a good night's sleep. and poor little buddy has been pretty cranky for the last few days because he is teething. he cut his third tooth this week and his fourth is about to emerge at any moment. i'm also stressed out--but i'm not really sure why, exactly. financial struggles. but that's nothing new. lots to do at work. but that's not really new, either. the house that is a disaster. ha, that's also nothing new.
so why so melancholy today?
i'm not sure. maybe there's something negative in the air.
so how do i change it? what cheers you up when you're having a bad day? especially when you don't know why?