it's 11 pm and i am not asleep. why? because although i'm depressed as hell (hooray for depression...NOT) my mind thinks that sleep is unnecessary. so instead of laying in bed staring at the ceiling fan and being incredibly jealous of hubby sleeping next to me i will thrill you with this fun little meme.
What is bothering you right now?
the fact that i can't sleep, and i want to. and my back. :P
What does your last received text message say?
i'm not sure because my phone is upstairs charging. probably "luvu"
When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life?
i'm not sure
What are you doing tonight?
What was the last voicemail you received about?
Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
yes, a whole bunch
Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
i never go to sleep smiling, my face relaxes when i go to sleep
Did you have a good day yesterday?
it was okay, better than a lot of recent days
Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
i married him! i talk to him daily
What is your current mood?
tired, kind of scared and apprehensive
What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
getting on the road to healing, being a better person. little buddy's first birthday!
How's your heart lately?
pumping like normal!
Will this weekend be a good one?
i hope so! looking forward to seeing some friends tomorrow and spending as much time with hubby and little buddy as i possibly can.
Who hugged you last?
What is your relationship status?
Look behind you, what do you see?
Any summer plans for 2009?
not so far!
How's your life lately?
scary. i don't know what's going to happen, i'm out of control and i hate that.
Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Do you miss anyone?
yes. i miss myself. i hope i can get myself back again soon. i hate who i am right now.
Is there one place you'd like to visit?
florence, venice, paris (that's three but maybe if we say EUROPE it will count as one place.)
Have you held hands with anyone today?
Ever been swimming in a lake or river?
both. once, in high school, i went swimming in the river at dark. actually, i jumped out of a tree into the river but i couldn't see where the rocks ended and the river began. i also didn't know how deep it was there. pretty stupid, huh?
Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
yes. a few friends i've lost touch with.
What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
told hubby i loved him
Do you give out second chances easily?
usually yes. but it depends on why that person needs a second chance.
What woke you up today?
little buddy, like every day.
Your ex shows up randomly at your house what do you say?
get off my property
This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
you bet! my hubby.
Two days from now this time, where will you be?
hopefully in bed asleep
Have you ever thought you were going to marry someone?
ever? yeah, like about a million guys, beginning when i was three. like most girls.
Who was the first person you talked to today?
How late did you stay up last night and why?
i don't remember
When was the last time you did something you knew was wrong?
not sure exactly
Have you ever been nice to someone who treated you like crap?
Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
"anything," yes. but not very much like it. last year i was not a mommy. a lot has changed, i have changed.
When was the last time you felt like your heart was actually breaking?
a few days ago. panic attacks tend to make you feel that way.
Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
hubby, my friends kaitlyn and steph, now that i'm an adult my mom and dad
Does the person you like, like you back?
i think so. i'm pretty hard to live with lately.
When was the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone? Who?
hubby, on my way home from work
Are you friends with someone who lies about the stupidest stuff ever?
Pick a word that starts with the first letter of your first name:
What's something that always gives you the chills?
a beautiful, powerful piece of music.
How was the past week for you?
long. a lot has changed as far as the future goes in the last week.
Whats your favorite color?
What are you listening to?
the tv, and the heater
What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
chocolate. i really only like pb in reese's.
If the year only consisted of one season which would you choose?
If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to tell you?
if it were someone other than hubby, no way is a cool way. if it were hubby, i like hugs.
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
What's one thing you want more than anything in your life?
What was on your mind most today?
Last person you gave something to?
gave hubby a kiss
Do you like winter time?
parts of it
Do you believe that if you want someone bad enough you'll get them?
define "bad enough." no--if i spent my entire life pining after, say, some celebrity, no matter how "badly" i wanted him i seriously doubt i'd get him.
What's your favorite fruit?
i like all fruit. i love pears. and fresh pineapple, coconut, raspberries, oranges...
Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
nope i definitely can't
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
in a heartbeat
Do you know anyone named Taylor?
yes, a few people
Are you friends with someone who is older than you?
In the past week have you felt stupid?
frequently. i keep getting my words jumbled and saying stupid and or incoherent things.
Do people ever mistake you for being a different race?
haha. no way. i'm as white as they come.
Do your nails ALWAYS have to be painted?
no. in fact i rarely paint them because the paint chips within 30 seconds and then it bugs me so bad i have to chip it all off.
Do you have your baby picture in your room?
not my baby picture
What did you do today?
cleaned, took care of the baby, worked, visited with my parents, spent time with hubby
What happened at 4AM this morning?
nothing i'm aware of, i was sleeping
Were you happy when you woke up today?
no. baby woke earlier than usual.
Last thing received in the mail?
Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines?
yes and i hate it, i always sound retarded
Do you have any career ideas yet?
a few. mommy, art therapist, art historian, graphic designer. i'd love to be everything all at once. too bad i can't do that.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
At this time yesterday, what were you doing?
i think i was actually asleep
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
so now that you're thoroughly bored, feel free to do it yourself. maybe then you won't be bored.