Sunday, March 28, 2010
i keep having nightmares again. every night...seems like all night long.
why do i go for so long without one, just to have them over and over again, for weeks in a row?
this painting is really what it's like for me. these little demons, on my chest, making it hard to breathe, getting in my head...white-eyed terrifying horses, pounding and screaming....while i am laying there helpless, vulnerable, and alone inside the nightmare.
i wake up feeling like i haven't slept at all, dark circles under my eyes, headache, anxiety in my chest. poor hubby keeps asking me how he can help...but i don't think he can reach inside my head and pull out the darkness. trust me, i wish he could.
what do you do when you have nightmares? how do you handle it? have you ever had one so real it's hard to separate sleep from reality?