hot mess

stress. freak out.
stress. freak out.
stress. freak out.
stress. freak out.
stress. freak out.

this is the theme for the month of january. remember last january? same thing. january before that....i'm pretty sure it was the same, maybe not quite as bad. so why is this month such a hard one? i don't understand why....as far as i can remember, there isn't really a specific event in my life that would turn me into such a mess in the month of january. seasonal affect disorder? i don't think so, although i guess it could be a possibility.

i'm not going to go into much detail but the past week has been an extremely difficult one depression-wise.

i wish i remembered how it felt to be happy....but then i wonder, have i ever really been happy? maybe as an infant, possibly as a toddler, but i sure don't remember that far back.

positive vibes sent this way would be mucho appreciated....for both me and hubby, because he needs them too.

january is my one hot mess month. anyone else having a hot mess of a january?