pooh's grand adventure

isn't it funny how when you're really struggling you tend to come across something that makes you stop and think twice?

i've really been struggling lately. my depression is out of control....and i've been having anxiety, no sleep, and i easily get trapped inside my head.

this morning i started reading a book to little buddy. it's a new one that he got for christmas that we haven't read together. it's called "pooh's grand adventure." in the story, it is the last day of summer and christopher robin will begin school the next day. after a day of playing in the hundred acre wood, christopher robin tries to tell pooh goodbye.

he says, "pooh bear, if there's ever a tomorrow when we're not together, there's something you must remember:

you're braver than you believe,
and stronger than you seem,
and smarter than you think."

it might be a coincidence...maybe it is...but i'd like to think it isn't. after all of the praying i've been doing, pleading for strength, and for help, perhaps this is an answer.

if i can memorize those three lines, and repeat them to myself over and over, maybe i'll start to believe them about myself.

i'm braver than i believe,
i'm stronger than i seem,
and smarter than i think.

sweet redemption

oooooh care bears is on.

saturday morning just redeemed itself.

how i spend my saturday mornings

you know you're either a) bored out of your mind, b) lazy, c) sick or d) don't have cable when you're watching really crappy saturday morning cartoons. when your kid is taking a nap. and you are home alone.

yes. i am watching "kirby: right back at ya!" by myself. can i just say that i don't like japanese animation. i never have. ever. it really really really bugs me the way the movement of their mouths does not match the sound. the hokey action bothers me. and yet, kirby is the best thing on tv right now. and i am not feeling well. and i am bored. and i am being lazy because i should be doing dishes. and folding laundry. and it's true, we don't have cable.

so that's my saturday morning for you. the sad thing is that i really like watching cartoons. even before little buddy was born, i chose to watch little kids shows. all of those old mgm cartoons, and the flintstones, and the jetsons, and tom and jerry, and looney toons, and animaniacs, and rocko's modern life, and all other manner of cartoony goodness. i even watched teenage mutant ninja turtles (which was, in fact, my favorite cartoon when i was little) and x-men. i'm sure that dates me but those were the shows that were on saturday morning when i was a kid. i also watched sesame street and mr. roger's neighborhood. as an adult. by myself. for entertainment.

so, as you can see, i am still a child at heart. (here's a confession for you. periodically i will pull out my old spice girls cds-circa sixth grade-and listen to them. and sing. really loud. at the top of my lungs. but only when i'm alone, mind you.)

so. anyone else still watch cartoons? and enjoy them? and hate the fact that saturday morning cartoons in 2008 consist of really lame japanese animation?